After my melancholy goodbye to Lor, I sat around for a good stretch of time singing songs from A Very Potter Musical to my dog. I'm such a reader and internet freak that I'm not usually prone to boredom, but I felt pressingly alone and useless. Jess and Sebastian came by to try and remedy this, but we didn't really do anything fun. We hung out in Jess's room and watched her pack for her move-in tomorrow, and at one point, there was vegetable lo mein involved. Part of me is glad for the opportunity to see my friends as much as possible, and the other half feels really sick and sad to see Jess gather all the gear she'll need to go meet people I'll never know. Everything Sebastian said and did managed to make me mad or upset tonight, and none of it was his fault. Your boyfriend and best friend should not go to the same school and hang out all the time when you're living hours away. They just shouldn't.
I'm just... I don't know. I'd say none of these feeling are irrational or unpredictable, but it's not like anticipating them makes it easier.
I think I'm going to go take that bath I decided against last night, and, even though I'm in the middle of a million books that are a lot more fulfilling and important, I think I'll reread Sarah Dessen's This Lullaby tonight. It's about the summer before starting college, and when it became one of my favorite books of all time, I was in eighth grade. I'm interested to find out if I like it as much now that I'm Remy's age and all the glamour of eighteen-year-olds has faded. I'll let you know.
Sexy: Darren Criss, cowriter and star of the Potter musical. I've never met him, and I know nothing about him as a person, but he sure is talented and super-mega-foxy-awesome-hot. I have a big crush on him.
Unsexy: My current state of mind/emotion. Boo.
Chipotle burritos this year: 27
S'mores this summer: 6
Bye, guys. Hopefully I'll see you tomorrow. <3