I'm in a bad mood. I'm jittery and anxious. I have an unstarted paper due tomorrow morning. And the only thing I can stand to do, for some reason, is blog. However, having spent all day driving back to school, I'm in that weird state where my brain is exhausted but my body is restless... so this will come in a list of whiny bullet points.
Reasons to Whine:
--Every February, there's a weekend at OU when students have their younger siblings come visit, and my big brother (an Ohio University graduate himself) made plans to join the little ones this year and come down to hang out. We were all (one of my sisters is here, too, as a senior) looking forward to it for a long time. I was super excited for the last weekend of the month... until I realized that I'd gotten the dates wrong. Sibs' Weekend started this last Friday. The same Friday that I'd made solid plans to meet my boyfriend's family. When I realized my mistake, I hesitantly let my brother know that I wouldn't be in town for his visit... and he was pretty irritated and upset. My brother doesn't get irritated and upset with me. It feels really wrong and sad.
--Before meeting my boyfriend's parents and sister (who are positively LOVELY people; so kind to me and truly adorable), I practically made myself sick, worrying that they wouldn't like me. I'm embarrassed just to admit that, but it's true-- I've always been sort of self-conscious about whether or not I'm liked, and I managed to give my normally clear face four mountainous zits from stress. The worry is over now, but the bumps on my chin and lip remain.
--As my school and his work are located far apart, I don't get to see The Situation a third as often as I'd like to, and saying goodbye really doesn't get any easier with practice.
--I went home for the rest of the weekend, and since a few of my school friends live near my house, I happily offered to drive them, and ended up taking one of my sister's friends with us. And. Well. How can I properly describe this guy to you? When he first entered the car, he was on the phone. Through the loud speaker, I heard a voice ask, "How's Kelly's sister?" to which the boy responded, "Eh, she's like a cute seven." I'm going to assume that he meant that, on a scale from one to ten, I rank at seven. Now, I'd probably call MYSELF a "cute seven," so that alone wouldn't have bothered me much, but this guy went on to give me driving advice ("Wanna pass this truck already?"), respond to questions by saying "word," which I was unaware was something people actually DID, and to make a variety of vile statements which I will not dignify by repeating. I was irate by the time I dropped him off at his parents' mansion, and overjoyed when he found another ride back to Athens today.
--My oldest sister and brother-in-law took my parents on a little mini-vacation this weekend to celebrate their birthdays, and my brother and other sister were at OU, so I had the house all to myself for Saturday and Sunday. I wasn't too thrilled about this, but I was looking forward to having time to devote solely to my friends. I hung out with Lor and Jess for part of Saturday morning, and was excited to inform them that they could sleep over, so we could eat and talk all night. But... they had other plans. Other plans with friends from THEIR school. I don't know. It's one thing to feel left out when you hear about the fun your childhood friends are having without you from several hours away, but realizing that they have a life that simply doesn't involve you, even when you're around, is kind of depressing.
--Due to the previous bullet point, I spent Saturday night all alone, watching old episodes of Sex and the City and feeling very conscious of my loneliness. At one point, I yelled several times for my dog, and she didn't come. She was sitting in the other room. Just couldn't be bothered to lift a paw to respond, even when she only sees me every couple of weeks. Thanks, Lexi.
--My friend James wanted to try a new route back to school today, and I listened to him, because he was the one holding a map. Everything appeared to be going fine, until James revealed that he's dyslexic and had read off the wrong exit number, and we found ourselves in rural West Virginia. I mean, it was okay. We figured out how to get back fairly quickly and painlessly-- but not until after we made a pit stop and were begrudgingly served by a gas station attendant with some kind of personal vendetta against Ohio. "Ya'll lost on your way to Ohio University?" she'd asked. We confirmed her suspicions with a nod, to which she sucked her teeth and replied, "I hate people from Ohio." On the bright side, we all made it out alive. On the downside, it would have made an awesome horror story if we hadn't.
...That was an awful and unfunny thing to say. I'm clearly tired.
Anyway, I wish there were some kind of conclusion to this all, in which I'd tell you how much my day has improved, and how content I am now. But in reality, I just feel a little bit calmer for having let all my thoughts out, and a little bit more worried about that paper I haven't started writing. So. Sorry for being a downer. Here's hoping that tomorrow will be better.
Chipotle burritos this year: 6
Subscribers: 25,084
Nail color: "Taupe-less Showgirls," OPI (discontinued)
Miles run today: 0, but I went for a psychotic walk in my pajamas before sitting down to write this, because I had so much steam to burn off.
67 comments:
Ho-ney. I feel like we were on a similar emotional range this weekend, though mine was due less on emotionally-wracking events and more on PMS. Whatever. I still feel you. <3
Sorry you had such a bad day Hayley!
I've had a bad day too. Most of my friends decided to just abandon me I guess. Telling me I'm selfish and going to lose all my friends because I simply want to go to a concert (of a band they don't even like.) by myself. Sigh.
Hope tomorrow's better for you.
Tons of love. <3
I can relate, once again, to your experiences.
Especially to what you said about your childhood friends having a life that doesn't involve you.
I couldn't go to college this year due to a multitude of reasons and was left behind by all of my friends who could go to college this year.
Every weekend I have now is lonely and it sucks. So I feel you on that one, definitely.
As for the others, I'm really sorry that you're feeling so low. I am, as well, though not for the same specific reasons as you are.
You'll get through it all, Hayley. I know it =]
Good morning, Hayley! The good news is we're almost two hours into a whole new day. The bad news is I have class in roughly... six hours and have yet to sleep.
I just finished Paper Towns, my first John Green, and after a whirlwind romance I have to admit we're in love. What do you reccomend next, An Abundance of Katherines or Looking for Alaska?
Anyway, I can commiserate with the boyfriend being so far away. Mine's in Baghdad. I just sent him a care package though. A Zombie Survival Kit. He's a huge gore movie guru. And absolutely loved it. (... I have no idea why I just told you all that...)
Today will be fantastic, just watch.
Sorry you had such a bad day...I always hate when I go home and I feel left out and like my family doesn't even care that I'm there and I only live 30 minutes away and go home every weekend so just thinking about you doing that and having this situation must be extremely tough. At least it's over now and next time you go home, I'm sure everyone will be ready to hang out with you.
Hopefully you get your paper done early enough so you can go to sleep and hopefully tomorrow's a better day for you <3
Oh my gosh I know exactly how you feel about the whole friends thing. I used to live in Texas several years ago, and when I visited recently I was planning on having this fun sleepover thing just like you were talking about with them, and then turns out they were going to this big party instead. That feeling = notsome. I'm sorry that happened.
Aw. That's just a terrible weekend isn't it? Well feel better Hayley. The sun should come out tomorrow, and if not you can just blame little orphan Annie for being a big fat liar.
I love you, scrabblepuppy.
Aw, I'm so sorry you had a bad weekend. I sincerely hope you have a better week. If it makes you feel better, you're one burrito ahead of me... See ya soon.
I'm giving you a massive hug right now. Not one of those weird computer hugs, but a real and normal in-my-head hugs.
Hope you're feeling better.
I hope today turns out to be a better and brighter day for you.
:]
If my mom heard all of this, she would advise you to make a hot cup of tea, so I'm going to do the same.
I hope that there is someone available to give you a giant hug. I also hope your brother forgives you soon. That really sucks.
oh Hayley! I had one of those downer days too! Too much work and not enough time. The only good thing is I ate my first Chipolte in NYC this weekend, and it was as amazing as you've made it since I've read your blog and watched your videos.
I just wish they'd come to my state and I'd be super happy.
Hayley, I'm so sorry about your weekend. Sometimes bad days happen, even in Australia. I hope the rest of this week is much, much better for you.
Yes, it's Hayley's blogggg!
Glad you can rant to us and it helps you to chill out a little. Good luck with your paper and everything. <3
I am sure everything will get better. It was just weekend. I have spent many weekends alone in college. It is no fun and it sucks. You just got to make sure that you have a really good week and weekend for this one. Just remember things will get better.
So sad that you're having some bad days ! I get what you mean with the friends thing, except in my case it's different. Me and my best friend were best friends for 7 years. And then basically what happened was she didn't want us to be best friends.
Hope things brighten up ! Try and think about all the positives of your life when you're down (:
xx
I'm so sorry your weekend wasn't what you expected, Hayley. At least your boyfriend's family was nice. I hope the paper turned out okay. Every college student has weekends like this. I'm a junior and I've had plenty. But every bad weekend is just a reminder that things aren't easy, and it makes you appreciate the good weekends even more. And just remember, your friends may be moving forward without you, but you're also moving forward without them. The key is finding place in your new life to fit with theirs. Chin up, bud. It gets better.
Everyone has those days, but that doesn't make them any less suckish =[
but I know things will look up for you!
I don't know how familiar you are with Canadian geography... But I go to the University of Victoria, which is on Vancouver Island off the pacific coast. However, I'm from a small town in Alberta which is on the mainland and some 16 hours away. Anyways, it was all of the western Canadian universities spring break this past week, and I ended up having to stay here on the island the entire time. All of my friends from here were gone, and all of my friends from home were hanging out together. While I sat in my bedroom on a rock in the Pacific Ocean, willing away the hours until school started again.
Hope you feel better soon!
I have a paper to write for tomorrow too, I don't know how I'll manage to have it done if I continue to comment on blogs ^-^ Anyways, I'm sorry that you're having a bad week, this one is gonna be better, i hope !
Gah! I know everything you are feeling Hayley, and I know how much it sucks.
But us blog readers love you! You brighten up our days often enough, when we are down and sad. Now let us do it for you!
*BIG VIRTUAL HUGS* You're the best!
I know exactly how you feel(even though that probably doesn't make it any better)and am in the same state. I send love and comfort to you. I wish I had some advice but if I did, I'd probably feel better as well. life.....
Whoops. Those are... uh, well, a lot of reasons.
The thing about you being nervous about meeting The Situation's family is incredible. You are a beautiful, very intelligent girl. You have nothing to be worried about!
Hope you feel better in general! :)
x
I can understand a bad day post. You need to have one of those every once in a while. You are always witty and entertaining so you are definitely at liberty to have an emo post every once in a while. I hope things get better though. It's weird how you think that bad days slash weeks won't happen when you're in a fun place like college. I just had a really crappy week and I'm in Italy! It happens everywhere. But it will be over soon and that's the good news.
Speaking of Italy, we obviously do not have Chipotles here but I thought that you would like to know that for us meat eaters Kebabs make quite a nice replacement. They kind of remind me of chicken Chipotle burritos so it's nice that I don't have to miss that too much.
Haha, you're almost as good of an OPI salesgirl as you are for Chipotle! The pics leave me vastly entertained, mostly because of the cutesy punny names.
Ha, the WV thing sounds hilarious, and your weekend is so relatable for so many people! It's these kinds of experiences that give you good things to write about (as a blogger, of course, but I mean as an author in the future) - we all know that live isn't all rainbows, and so your sucky weekend will make for some awesome, realistic selling material in future books.
I totally feel for you on the brother thing (I feel SO bad when he gets irritated with me, which is rarely), and the friend thing. I wouldn't call myself a total loser with no friends, but sometimes it really feels that way.
Just remember, you have something a LOT of people want- family, friends, love, and amazing talent. I'm not gonna continue to lecture you because I know you know this, but it's just one of those days. We can all relate! Feel better soon!
--It’s possible that your brother was just stressed or irritated about something else and took it out on you. As long as you were apologetic when you spoke to him, I don’t see any reason why he should be too mad. We all make mistakes.
--I’m certain you made a good impression with your boyfriend’s family. You’re an amazing, lovely person. They’ll see that.
--That’s tough, but at least we live in the days of cell phones and computers. Make good use of texting and emailing.
--Some people just suck. At least he found a different ride home.
--Try not to take that personally. It’s very likely that they made plans in advance with their other friends and couldn’t cancel.
--Even dogs tend to ignore us sometimes. She was probably just tired.
--Well, at least you made it back. Gas station lady sounds really weird…
>.< Yeah, I didn’t mean to type all of that, but after I responded to the first two bullet points my OCD took over and made me reply to the rest. Anyway. Point is, sorry you had an annoying day, but try not to let it get you down. It’s never as bad as it seems. ;-)
Sorry to hear. We all have those days (or weekends). Hope you cheer up soon!
even when you are complaining i enjoy your writing :]
being dyslexic myself...
yeah, i have been told many times that i shouldn't give directions, a friend of mine live, im guessing, about 5 miles away from my house and ive been there before...it got SO lost the other day.
also, you should write like, a short story or something about gas station lady! i would love to read the way you characterize her, and that situations.
Gas station lady deserves a kick.
It looks like most of your readers have felt the same way you have about friends leaving you in the dust. Me too, which is why girl scout cookie season was invented.
*inhales a box of samoas*
-Bri
Sorry there's such negativity going on at the moment! Your vids and blogs really brighten my day, so I wish I knew how to brighten yours...but the only thing I know about is the secret to saying goodbye when you're in a semi-long-distance relationship. Have fun until the very last minute, keep the farewell hugs and kisses brief (I know I am prone to want to linger for a half hour, but that just makes it tougher when you have to drive away), and don't use anything as heavy as "goodbye." Light and even sarcastic humor is best. My personal favorites are the sentences my boyfriend and I use:
"See you around."
"Certainly HOPE so. Jerk :D"
Oh, wait, I have secrets for last-minute papers, too! Not sure how long yours has to be, and I know you're a writer so you know all about outlines and whether or not it's appropriate to use them...but my tactic involves putting Pandora on "Jim Brickman" (perfect study music), opening the window for fresh air if it's not too noisy, and if you hit 1 AM and still have a ways to go? Mac n cheese and a caffienated drink. There's nothing like mac n cheese when everyone else is sleeping and it's the only taste you've had for hours. Finally, if resources are required, I suggest writing as much as you can on your own (avoids accidental plagiarism), then going to Google Scholar to find official peer-reviewed articles to support your point with a sentence or two. You can even use the magazine issue it was from instead of the website, since many professors aren't fond of websites as sources. Best of luck!
(Also, the Ohio-hating gas attendant? Sounds scary as all get out.)
I just moved away from home, so it sucked hearing on Saturday that it was my best friend's birthday party and that all my best friends were off hanging out while I was at home eating girl scout cookies. It sucks, but from reading the comments it seems like EVERYONE had a crappy weekend/day.
I'm sorry you had a bad weekend! Here's to many more better weekends :) That nail polish is the one you were wearing in your recent video, right? It is the most magnificent color I have ever seen. Second to perhaps sparkly pink or something. <3
Hey Hayley. Totally understand the not seeing the boyfriend enough due to locations and time restraints. Been with my boyfriend for 2 and half years, and we've never lived closer than 3hours apart, 4 and half when we aren't at university. I had the pleasure of his company for 7 straight days this week, and returning from Bristol today was horrible. Plenty of practice at saying goodbye to him, but it never gets easier, gets harder I think.
Best thing to do is make a plan to see him again before you say goodbye so you have a definite date to look forward to and not just saying goodbye with that nasty 'when will i see you next' feeling. Next Tuesday for me! Counting the days. If you're strong you'll get used to it, and hopefully you'll both be very happy for a long time to come. Distance also makes seeing them far more special :D
Sorry to hear you missed your brothers visit. I'm sure he'll forgive you and you can see him with your sisters soon.
As for friends with new lives that don't include you, its very strange, but if they are true friends, like jess, you'll always fit right back in when you see her again.
Jealous you saw Alaska :P
Hope your week improves and you have that gorgeous smile back on your face soon!
Lots of love, a loyal subscriber and blog follower,
<3 Tesni :)
hahahahhahahha I say that all the time. It's so obnoxious.
Word.
I'm so there with you on the thing about feeling really lonely and then even the dog ignores you. That just happened to me today. Worst. Feeling. Ever.
The bad days seem to affect everybody--I've had a bad day, my friends have had a bad day, all you fellow commenters have had a bad day... Let's all start hoping the days get better. We'll get through this. <3
You posted this 20 hours ago, so I hope you're in a much better mood now, and that you finished your assignment and were reasonably happy with the result.
Saying goodbye only gets harder. The more you feel for someone, the more you want to spend time with them. I know it's not what you want to hear - sorry!
Okay, just to be annoying, I'm going to try to take all your Reasons to Whine and make them good:
1. At least your boyfriend's family likes you and you like them. It could have turned out a LOT worse. (not that anyone could NOT like you.)
2. See above
3. At least your Situation lives in the same state as you. Could be worse.
4. Um. K, I can't really make this one okay. That guy sounds awful. You're so much better than a cute seven. And people who immediately rate people like that are vile.
5. Okay, I give up.
I have bad days like that all the time. I hate it.
Ah well, life goes on.
Here's a big hug in the mean time. *HUGS*
-alex
sorry about this pointless comment. I should really work on making my comments shorter. *zips lips*
I'm sorry your weekend didn't work out as well as you would have hoped! Actually, I have a huge part of my history term paper due tomorrow, and so far I only have a quarter of it done, so we're pretty much in the same boat. Yay for procrastination! I hope this week goes better for you :)
Also, in an effort to make you feel better -- I decided a little while ago that you're pretty much my role model. So, even if you don't feel so great right now, just know that all in all, you're pretty freaking awesome (or at least I think so XD).
Hey Hayley!
i'm sorry you had such a bad day! i hate it when that happens, and then you get in to that bad mood where everything has that negative spin on it, even when whatever happens is for the best. today's my birthday, and i spent the WHOLE day doing homework, and i'm not even done. i didn't even have time to eat my cake yet or open presents, and i know doing all this work probably isn't even worth it because my teachers will find something wrong with the way i did the assignment, and...whatever. sometimes life is life. anyway, what i'm trying to say is, sometimes life kinda sucks, but it always gets better? i bet in a month or two, you and your family will be able to get together, and your friends will be able to see you, and you'll have an awesome time not to make up for the last time, but because you deserve to :). i'm glad meeting your boyfriend's family went well for you :) i'm sure they saw the smart, funny, genuine hayley that all of us see over here! good luck with your paper, and best wishes.
Jenna
(sorry for the long post. anddddd, i really love reading your blog. i've been reading it for a long time, and i finally decided to post :)sorry for the excessive smiley faces!
Hayley - I'm sorry you are upset right now.
Above commenter Jenna - HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Today is my best friend's birthday too. I hope you find time to enjoy it before it's over.
Awe, hates it!
I know that the last thing I wanna hear when I'm in a bad mood is other people talk about why they're in a bad mood, but because a lot of my real life pals are involved in some of the situations that have made my day shitty, I'd rather vent to you, Hayley.
-- I started off my day splendidly by forgetting the first well-balanced lunch I have ever packed...in my refrigerator at home.
--Then, at first hour, the alarm I forgot to turn off yesterday (when it had served its purpose) went off, and I got my phone taken away for it.
--Around lunch, I got to squirm into my new, awkwardly-fitting tennis outfit and go to my first-ever tennis match. My dear friend was my partner, but unfortunately, my dear friend is terrible at tennis, and we lost both sets.
--Immediately following my tennis match, I went to my audition for Beauty and the Beast. I told them I had Belle in mind, but because I knew that for some girls, it was Belle or nothing, I graciously said I was open to having a part at the palace. I figured they'd give me Lumiere, since I had expressed an interest when they first announced the play we'd be doing, but nope, I got the Wardrobe. I suppose I'm bitter about the whole thing, because I've gotten the part I wanted since the 7th grade and its gone to my head, but... sdfgasiuasoivbsjhdfglsajdfh
--To top it all off, the school from which three prom dates (one for myself, a friend, and another friend) would be coming (well, potentially) has announced that their prom is on the same day as ours. Fortunately for my two friends, one may be set up with a friend of a friend, and the other friend could pretty much have anyone she wants at the snap of a finger. I, however, will either have to settle for one of the 3(?) guys that occasionally lingers around my circle or go dateless (b/c theirs no way I could find myself a Mike Lombardo in time :P). While bringing an inflatable alien to homecoming was a wonderful laugh, I would've liked to have had a human date this time around.
-comes up for air-
K, I'm done. I already know you're a fantastic person, but... if you really made it to the end of that novel up there, you may just be the nicest, most patient person ever. Btw, I'm making the same lenten sacrifice you've made. I'm very excessive. Like, when I want to complain about my bad day, I can't ONLY complain to my sister and my mom and my dad and a couple of friends...I've got to go on the blogs of complete strangers and do it there, too. I'll stop now.
-Caroline
http://www.youtube.com/user/singadingding115
I'm sorry about your crappy-feeling, Hayley. I'm feelin' it, too, at the moment. Except mine's more of a over-emotional-crazy-15-year-old-girl-who-over-thinks-everything, kinda thing insted of an explainable crappy-feeling for legitmate reasons. So, mleh.
Hayley, I'm so sorry you've been having a hard time recently! I hope everything gets better really soon! I can totally understand the feeling when your friends seems to suddenly have a life without you. It's not fun at all. We all love you over here. <3
you've been in such a good mood all the time lately, you more than deserve to whine every once in a while. and we'll enjoy practically anything you post, haha. hope things get better, though.
On Saturday night I saw all my friends disappear off msn at once and then later saw the photos of them all out to dinner together, popping up on facebook. Turns out one of my friends had told the organiser not to invite me because my ex-boyfriend would be there. I've never felt more like a child or more alone. Sometimes friends don't know they're being callous.
I hope your week improves exponentially!
Way to neglect to mention the loneliness-defeating Scrabble, you whore.
ilu.
I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better and have your paper magically written, but I don't think there is. Instead, I'm leaving you a comment unremarkably similar to everyone else's. The main reason I'm typing this is to tell you that I'm here. I've been reading your blog since the beginning of the month, and I check it daily for more.
One of my life goals is to feel free enough to take a walk in my pajamas. Be glad you're free, Hayley. I bottle up all that energy and get terrible stomach aches because of it.
thanks joi! that was really nice of you. and, i hope your best friend had a good birthday too!
*sends virtual hugs*
At least that weekend's gone now, and you can look forward to the next weekend. I hope you're feeling better! <3
No, that was an awful and FUNNY thing to say. As a fellow Ohioan, I think that you had every right to make a mean joke about the psycho West Virginian.
I hope your paper turned out well.
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How terrible! How could he not notice you're sexy nine? But BESIDES that.
Bad days are excruciatingly notsome, and I hope today was better.
Also, pets can be bastards. My cat likes to herd me. Do not take their attitudes personally.
ALSO ALSO, chipotle will help ease the pain.
hope your week has been better! college gave me a similar week as well ): but i just wanted to say i missed you! i just caught up on about 3 months of blog updates and it was lovely to see your words again! so screw physics homework i'm staying caught up from now on (:
reasons that everything's okay:
--your brother will forgive you. it was an honest mistakes and there will be other times
--everything worked out, right? zits are whatever, you're beautiful no matter what. and i don't lie.
--it just makes seeing him all the better. the cake tastes sweeter if you wait till after dinner.
--people are dumb. you didn't kill him, and everything is fine now. is was only one drive. be glad that your friends aren't such pathetic excuses for humans.
--it's nice to be alone. they still love you and care about you, but think about it this way: you're now in the same situation that your brother was in. sometimes it just doesn't work out.
--dogs will always be there for you, even if they're too tired to come see you. he knows you're there and you're safe, and thus doesn't feel the need to go see you.
--again, everything worked out fine. at least you weren't alone and you got out of it.
"i have a long list of things to say, but i'll leave it at: you amaze me."
watch this, it's nice:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTJ7AzBIJoI
We all have these days, once in a while.
Next post should be called "reasons to smile" :)
Oh good old West Virginia. I go to school just up the road at Hocking so I feel your pain on the strange people of West Virginia and Southern Ohio as a whole.
Word.
...also the gas station lady from WV has clearly never been to NJ.
...this all based on the fact that she needs a state full of people to hate.
Have a super-duper day Hayley.
Aww Hayley. Last weekend was awful for me too. It was the Regionals meet that I worked all year for and failed, while some other teammates that haven't cared or tried all year qualified for state. I didn't get any best times and was sooo upset after my races. Hysterical crying & shaking, couldn't move or breathe, it was awful. Hope your week is better soon, because my weekend was awesome this time around. And look at all your comments... you are SO LOVED AWW!!
I really love your blog and I've read all the posts, but never commented until now. I'd just like to ask you and the other commenters to stop implying that everyone from West Virginia is an inbred hillbilly from a horror movie. I know you don't mean it, but it's still kind of insulting.
Sorry for the criticism, but I really do love your blog and think it's pretty awesome.
Hey Hayley this is actually in reference to an earlier blog but I'm posting it here because I don't know if you routinely check the comments from older blogs...
I recently read Percy Shelley's "A Defence of Poetry" and it reminded me so much of a comment you made (sorry if you've already read it):
"I love how a line in a poem can strike a part of your brain that you hadn't noticed was asleep before, and you can't rephrase the line or explain why it makes sense, because it's perfect and beautiful in that it says something that's never before been put so well."
He said, "Poets are the hierophants of an unapprehended inspiration; the mirrors of the gigantic shadows which futurity casts upon the present; the words which express what they understand not; the trumpets which sing to battle, and feel not what they inspire; the influence which is moved not, but moves. Poets are the unacknowledged legislators of the world."
I love that.
Reason to whine:
-for some reason my eye has had something lodged in it for over 2 days
-it may now be infected due to all my incessant flushing and poking at it
-that was a really gross story to tell
-Hayley hasn't updated her blog today (maybe she checked her hotmail though?)
-it's Tuesday, and Friday feels a long way away
When you were describing the gas station goosebumps were already forming on my arm. I recently read "In Cold Blood" by Truman Capote and became fascinated with American crime in the 50's and 60's. Now, long country roads and hundred-acre farms scare the living crap out of me. This would be fine if I didn't live in Texas. On that note, I don't think you're crazy for thinking it could've been a good horror story. I thought that when I was driving back from this drive-in movie place in the middle of Nowhere, Texas. Eeek
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