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Thursday, March 11, 2010

Never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down...

When will it end, readers? When will I stop making promises I have no intention of keeping? Every time that I get caught up in life and don't have the spare energy to blog, I pop my head in, yell, "I'M STILL HERE! I'LL BE BACK SOON!" and then continue hiding. It's silly. I LOVE blogging. It makes me feel like myself! Sometimes I just don't make any sense.

Speaking of nonsensicality, lately I've been feeling a little bit... I don't know, codependent? Maybe it's the college atmosphere of living with my friends, or the fact that my best friends are always on my mind due to the three hours between us, or the fact that I spend all my free time on Skype. But it seems like I wake up every morning, talk to The Situation, go to class, talk to my mom, go to class, eat with my friends, do my homework, talk to The Situation, sleep. Perhaps I'm the most selfish person alive (it's been suggested!), but even though I spend most of my time alone, I still feel like I have no time to myself.

Ugh. I'm sorry. "My life is carefree and I have wonderful people who love me! It's sooo haaard." You may now proceed to gag on spoons.

In other news, some really good things have happened since my last baby blog post. Roomie, Erin and I went out to "80s Dance Night" at the "artsy bar" this weekend, to which I channeled a young Madonna (circa "Like a Virgin") and wore a purple velvet prom dress from the cute vintage store. We spazzed out to the Breakfast Club soundtrack for a few hours, watched my adorable roommate be non-consensually grinded upon by some guy who barely spoke English, and made friends with a middle-aged stoner trying to relive her high school glory days. The whole experience was very collegiate. I hope you're proud of me.

As far as school is concerned... my grades aren't going to be as perfect as last quarter, but they won't be half bad. I'm going to go ahead and blame my lethargy and lack of attention span on Seasonal Affective Disorder. I'm serious-- the second the sun came out last week, it was as if the studious portion of my brain stretched and yawned, popped out of hibernation, and got me the top test score in my Linguistics class. Let's just hope this newfound excitement for studying sticks* around, and isn't replaced with my inevitable enthusiasm for lying outside on blankets, reading for pleasure.

Oh! Oh! Speaking of pleasure reading, I've been excitedly making my way through John Green and David Levithan's brand new novel, Will Grayson, Will Grayson. It comes out in April, but being a personal friend of a famous author has some serious perks! I'm about a fourth of the way into the book, and I'm already astonished by how simultaneously beautiful and hilarious it is. My adoration for both authors is far from secret, but I can't seem to express just how unique and impressive WGWG is proving to be. As soon as you get the chance, I highly suggest that you read it.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is pretty much all I've got. My boyfriend is staying with me this week at school, and I'm heading home this weekend to see my high school's production of Guys and Dolls, so I'm not sure when I'll be back online. If you miss me, though, it inspires me to hear so. This post is dedicated to @goingforthegold on twitter, for @replying and asking me to write. :)

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Current nail color: If you'll believe it... NONE. For the first time in about a year. It's freaking me out just as much as it is you.

*Sorry, but in rereading that sentence, I just kept thinking "studying sticks." As in, like, observing a twig with great fascination. I don't even know.

37 comments:

GillianisAslan said...

You make me excited. I've been getting less and less studious, even switching into a class where the teacher loves me and never makes me do anything. God I love new trimesters.

Rebekah said...

I've really missed your blogs, Hayley :)

Emily said...

I had to re-read the "studying sticks" sentence because I kept thinking you were talking about...well, sticks that somehow help you study. Which ALSO sounded a little "collegiate" to me. winkwink
Anyway, I took this year off of school because I dual-enrolled through most of high school (yay homeschooling) and had done four years of college ALREADY by the time I graduated high school (and gotten my AA), and I was just SO sick of school entirely, I couldn't handle even thinking about trying to do another two years. But now I've figured out what I want to do and I kind of can't wait to go to my new university and major in film while minoring in theatre. I'm really nerdily excited, haha.
Actually, I'm not sure why I just shared all of that with you except that you were talking about feeling a bit apathetic with school. I guess I'm saying that that's totally normal and natural, and once this semester is over just have a good summer and try to recharge so you can be excited again next year. :]

Robyn said...

Reading your blog is like textual sunshine; it doesn't make me want to study, but it makes me happy.

Emily said...

Right as I got home I thought, "Check Hayley's blog!" and there was another post. So thank-you for fulfilling my needs.

eibbore said...

Your blogs always make my day. (I wrote dad there good job I noticed that typo)

Emily said...
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Emily said...

I am very jealous of your having Will Grayson at the moment. I can't wait for it to come out!

Katie said...

I do miss reading your blogs!
Just thought I'd leave some inspiration for you for next month when you realize you haven't written in forever, again. ;P

Honestly though, I wish I had your writing skills. I used to keep a livejournal and I quit writing in it because 1) I'm boring and 2) I don't like reading my own writing style. I mean, I can write essays and papers like a beast. But I haven't gained the skill both you and my sister have for writing casually yet still...pleasing to the ear. So, I read your entries and hope that through osmosis I develop a pretty sounding writing style too. Or something.

Good luck with the rest of your school year and I'm sure you'll have a blast with The Situation. :)

Em said...

my high school is putting on guys and dolls too!

i love you and your blogs, hayley. thanks for brightening my day :)

Margaret said...

Jealous about Will Grayson, Will Grayson. Happy about The Situation. Mildly disturbed about your nails.

to_thine_own_self said...

Glad to have you back, Hayley!
I have indeed missed your blogs, so it's good to hear from you =]

P.S. Thanks for getting that song re-stuck in my head. I had only just gotten it out of my head from Tuesday night when Lauren was singing it in her 5AG vid.
Haha.

Emily. said...

Man, why are there so many Emily's on here? Haha here's to originality.
Please blog more! I mean, you're pretty much the only blogger I enjoy reading about.

Dinah said...

Remember when you were like, "Yeah, I might get a P.O Box"? Welllllllllllllllllllllllll?? Getting actual stuff from people who miss you would be even cooler than getting their tweets don't you think?
Just a thought.

Stefan said...

Now I've read all of John Green's books and like them a bunch. And I love love love nick and norah's infinite playlist.

I got a chance to read Will Grayson, Will Grayson and enjoyed it. But I really found David Levithan part a little hard to read.

By the end I think it evens out a bit. I dare say John Green more then saves that book.

Ida Ruda said...

I read it "studying sticks" as well. IT CAN'T BE UNSEEN!

I now feel the need to go read a book. (If you read that in an angry voice it could be used instead of "fuck off". "GO READ A BOOK!" I'll stop now).

Enough caps for today. Good night.

Anonymous said...

studying sticks somehow reminded me of Hen Wen from the Prydain Chronicles by Lloyd Alexander.....I have no idea why. But I definitely had to re-read that sentence several times. Odd.
HAH I got to read WGWG before you....this pleases me. It's so phenomenal. Honestly. Goodness.

Daniella said...

Oh, I just got that.

Daniella said...

Oh, I just got that.

Your Faithful Observer said...

I love it when you blog. :)

D Robinson said...

I'm still on a high from finding out I got to read Will Grayson, Will Grayson before you. It's awesome to be friends with librarians...

That aside, I love it when you post on your blog. Whatever you write, no matter the subject, brightens my day, because I have read well-written, but not pretentious words. It's nice.

And I love Thursdays.

Tom said...

*is jealous that you have Will Grayson* but I can wait a couple weeks.

Re: the codepedency whiny bit- it's that whole quality of life thing; you adjust. Like, people living in poverty can't imagine that if they were making 300,000 dollars a year they'd want more, but people who do make that much do want more, because they adjust to it. Just like people with no friends would never understand why you'd feel anything but spectacular all the time. *doesn't know why he's rambling about this*

Hey this might be a little early, but are you planning on doing BEDA again this year? That'd be the way to get yourself to blog more. If you had to, lest you want to FAIL. Or "lose" I guess, like Nanowrimo.

Jordiekins said...

Go have fun. Your life isn't about us, it's about you.

Having said that, BLOG MORE OFTEN.

<3

Krazy_4_Kelly said...

You make me excited to read WGWG and I thought I was already as excited as I could possibly be.

I'm glad you blogged, I miss reading your blogs when you're off having a fun life with an awesome boyfriend and cool friends and suchness =)

Have fun with The Situation this week!

kira902k said...

I laughed so much when I read "studying sticks" and then realized that you see the same thing when you read it.
I MISS YOUR BLOG POSTS. Your life is way too exciting. It's not good.
K, well, it's good for YOU, but not for me. Now I'm going to get really high expectations for college, and if it fails in the least, I'll be severely disappointed. Same thing happened with high school.

-alex
Founder of the GHNABF
Give Hayley's Nails A Break Foundation.


...
-facepalm-

Christina said...

I had my first Chipotle burrito this week. It was amazing!!! The whole time I was eating it, I was like I now what she has been raving about. Good luck with the whole studying thing.

The Vagabond said...

I love your blogs, Hayley!

I also laughed out loud when I saw this post's title because I'm currently studying cooking in Florence at the moment (taking an Italian vegetarian cooking class so if you want any recipes I can hook you up) and they play a lot of the American music that we don't really listen to anymore. I hear this song almost everyday. They also play a lot of Owl City which is unfortunate for me because I hate them. No Fray yet though so that's good at least.

Kristina said...

It took me a few readthroughs of that sentence too to realize you weren't studying sticks. xD

Also, I love your new banner. :)

genevieve said...

Hayley, I adore you. Just sayin'. :)
PS: I'm kind of freaked out because currently, I too, have bare nails for the first time in forever. twins! :P

Rachel said...

I love your blog, I'm so jealous of all of your adventures!

Oh yeah, I remember they said on 30 Rock that sad comes from Seasonal Affective Disorder. I did not know that.

Cece said...

I'm the opposite, during winter I study (you know...for the most part...kinda...) but as soon as the sun comes out all I wanna do is be out in it.

I lol'd at the 'studying sticks' bit :)

And as happy as it makes me when I see you've blogged, i've heard being in college is about having a life. So go have fun ;)

J said...

Random Question: Should I go to junior prom?

hannah = nerd said...

I loved WGwg. I got mine in January in Boston, and the last scene is incredibly heartwarming and amazing. I fell in love with Tiny.

Kristen said...

On Friday I had one of my biggest dreams ripped away from me. This week has been so incredibly notsome. My saving grace was managing to catch John Green on Live Stream reading the first chapter of WG, WG. Hayley, he's my hero because he's your hero. I shudder to think I never would have known his profound awesomeness had I not stumbled upon your channel.

Keep the blogs coming regularly, if not often. Obviously, that's purely optional, but I really enjoy reading them.

Nokorola said...

I love the Rick Astley title.

Also, I'm glad this winter is almost over, I have a new found appreciation for the sun.

Have a super-great week Hayley!

Christina said...

'Studying sticks' confused me as well. I initially imagined something similar to index cards only more like a popsicle stick. I guess it would be like those ones with the jokes on it and you have to eat it to get the punch-line? But I feel like that would be pretty detrimental to one's health moreso than it helping a GPA. hm
Also, I'm super excited for WGWG, I can't wait. I pre-ordered it, but I also apparently won one during an HHH livestream, though it is yet to arrive.

Tara said...

Hey Hayley, just catching up on some of your posts, and I have to tell you that being codependent isn't much to worry about. I have been in Toronto (4 hour flight away from home) for the past six months going to a private college, living alone (because the don't have dorms or anything) and I have never been lonelier in my life. In some ways it's good for me and has definitely taught me a lot, but in other ways I feel stunted. I mean yes I have friends from school but when I come home and have to study and make myself food, and overall fend for myself, it gets really lonely. So just wanted to tell you, having all those people you can talk to, and having a good support system doesn't necessarily make you codependent. It makes you loved.

All the best,
Tara